well...my life as it stands at the moment...technically
is hangin in the balance

after a shocking start to the year...the completion of semester one of uni saw me failing all my subjects...2 by not much.

following this disaster, i had to face the academic committee to plead my case as to why i'd failed so miserably and to beg them to let me stay..
i did that..and they let me stay, although not entirely convinced that i was going to make any changes to my second semester.

i did in fact make some changes. i dropped a major and picked up studying chinese...again...which i'd done right through high school.
i thoroughly enjoyed studying it ...and managed to get a 90% (HD) on it at the end of the semester...

also got a high credit on my second subject...however, due to reasons that still frustrate me to this day...i again failed one subject...by a whole 6 marks...ARGH..

i didnt understand it fully the first time round. the second time, i tried my best, i did all the homework set and completed all the assignments to a satisfactory level. sadly, this still didnt result in a pass mark *sigh*. not to mention the lack of assistance from my tutor, after i'd bugged her a hell of a lot....

u wouldnt've even thought she'd existed outside the classroom...

so newayz...as a result of that, i've now been temporarily 'kicked' out of uni, for a minimum of a year, of which...if and when i do wish to re-enrol i must state exactly everything i have been doing in my time off that may enable me to complete my course...successfully...or they dont let me back in!!

nowadays, i'm in two minds of whether i really do want to finish my degree now or not. Mum's not really letting me have a choice. she wants me to finish it....whether i like it or not.

so i've decided in my time off that i'm going to find some full time work, or perhaps a traineeship that i can apply for.
the problem however that i've found with the traineeships is that i'm overqualified for the position, and with the other full time positions, i dont have the required experience necessary to be successful in my application. so newayz i'm just gonna stick myself out there and apply for them newayz. if they want me, then they'll take me i spose....

cant really blame me for trying. and who's ever not gotten a job cos they were overqualified, specially when all they want is the work experience.

so newayz...that's my life ...as it stands at the moment.
kinda sucky...but maybe some hope yet??
i dont know
i guess we'll have to see

will update later on my job applications and how i go in them all

much love to all
and a cherry merry new year
xox